tonight, i think of you
tonight, i cry.
i've read thousands of quotes.
and i only thought of you.
tonight, i shall tell myself
i shall pretend that i've let you go
tonight, i promise myself that i won't go back to holland
tonight, i promise to stop taking iniative.
tonight i shall only let myself know, my feelings never changed
tonight i shall let only myself know, that you never once loved me
and the only lie i'd love to hear from you is
i love you
i love you.
i wished for many things, and im still wishing
i know you're just using me
but it's okay
i agreed to that.
becuase you never realised how much trouble i went through.
just to spend that 2 nights with you.
it's ok, because you never really appreciated it
the only thing i regret, was not giving one tight hug, and whisper i love you, i wish you did too.
it's okay,
i'm fine now.
you can stop pretending you still like me.
you can move on, no wait
you already did.
just stop making use of me, so obviously.
that's all i asked for.
good night yi sheng.
i miss you.
enjoy your trip.
ytd was the last night.
although i wish it will never end, but it's okay
they say, sometimes in life, you have to let go of people u never wanted to let go.
i think i understand what it meant.
because i kept cursing you
but i still went to find you.
i still tolerated your temper
funny huh. why? i don't know.
yi sheng, you'll never read this.
but somehow, i still wish you could.
because i want you to know, how much of an asshole you are.
because i never said much about me n him and what i've been doing.
doesnt mean i've never tried and stuggled.
and you don't know how tired, upset and lonely i felt.
because each time i thought i could turn to and lean on you.
you let me realise, you were never really there.
but it's okay.
i'd still love you.
because i think it's okay to let you hurt me.
at least i got to love you one, got you to like me once.
that's the difference.
yi sheng, i cant stop calling your name.