woke up at 8.45 am , and oh , saw yunica's message that we changed meeting time to 12 !
i was so happy , and i went back to sleep ; hoho
it was really a relief okay , consider that i sleep less than 4hours everyday
so it's only on saturdays nad sunday that at least , i get to sleep a little longer
went study with alex and yunica at starbucks .
had lunch at foodcourt then continued to study at coffee bean after that .
honestly speaking , i fag damm little today , and im actually not fagging tonight . wow .
i really should start to burry myself in books , and i finally admit my english is really bad .
reading my own compo , it really sucks when it comes to the language .
i just don't know how to phrase them into beautiful sentences , help me ?
finally saw yan hui and jason today and their friend is a totaly fuckshit pro in car racing .
he's damm bloody good at it i tell you , fucking good ; totaly godly .
and i've been looking so sick everyday , even dearest said i look so tired .
my eyes are getting darker and heavier , my complex is getting worst . shit






see how skinny my chunkit is ?


























and it's better to just love as much as you want , then not cherishing the chance to love totally
it's okay to be hurt , you'll get over it .
but still , im freaking out with the fact im falling deeper and deeper into the relationship .
subconsciously , i keep getting the thinking that you've totally forgotten her .
but on second thought , i've got to get hold of myself and remind me that it's impossible .
i want to , but i can't trust you on that fact

no , it's just too much to bet on .
i can't afford to lose this bet ; never .


im quite bored of hearing everyone commenting on me , saying ,
wow ? you actually can last such a long relationship siol , lisa lehs .
YES IS LISA . im with my boyfriend for more than a year if you count all that waiting stuffs .
im happy that i've actually changed , to what i was originally .
it was sec 2 , back then
fuck you weilun , you really suck and just messed up life .
i ' ve been so fickle for so long , and suddenly im totally into xiao u .
i'm actually afraid of myself ; because it just isnt me now .


there's so much i want to tell you
but when i open to speak , i realise it pretty much doesn't make sense .
again , im dumbfounded .