today is no better for me , yes defintely not much better .
it really doesn't feel nice to see your very best friend become someone else's best friend .
forget it , there's no point harping on this subject anymore .
skipped chinese today and went to sick bay to sleep , really sleep .
bloody tired and my eyes are so bloody fucking swollen today
din't really sleep ytd , dear's with me on the phone .
im back to square one with my family , everything's so screwed , nvm .
im tired already , no point trying .
just wanna fucking finish my o's , go work , play madly everyday and live my life .
many things happened and gf phoned dearest and scolded him on the phone
chatted with yonghan and he managed to make me laugh cuz he's a real idiot .


for one of the rare times , i really detest my own boyfriend involve in gangsterism .
never were you there when i needed you , especially ytd morning and night .
why din't i tell you anything ?
it's because you were never free to hear my sorrows .
either you're at chu shi , out with friends , ns or all that idiotic taiji buisness .
when my tears have finally gone dry , and i don't feel like talking anymore ,
you step in causing thoughts to flood my mind and tears streaming again .
still , im glad for your concern and worry in the morning .
i've got no energy these days , so sad .

tmr's my one year with dearest (: