accompanied dearest to his friend's chalet there , left quite early .
had a super huge one on one with dearest , and it was real whacking , wtf .
cab down to meet up with manfred and his friend calvin .
thanks to them for evetythign last nite (: thanks alot .
& manfred ! im sorry =( i'll return you soooon !!!!

i've been trying everything i could , to make you proud of me ; proud of us .
but everything i did , seems so foolish .
honey . is there anything i could do , so you no longer feel ashamed when you face them ?
is freedom the only thing to cover everthing ?
i no longer blame you for anything , i blame myself for everything .
its always been my fault , that everything is like this .
i've always knew , she's better than me (:



i accept it , i'll accept everything .
you mind seeing them together , i know it all along , but it's okay now (:
go ahead with everything , you can put me last , its okay now baby . it's okay .