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damm it . i miss using my com =( fuck man . using my dad's laptop . but the font size is all different . zz wonder if my blog's screwed up . sian . im stil saving up for shopping . sadded . && im having tution with lijing tmr ! && im still thinking if i want to join the chemistry tuition == somehow i've been thinking alot recently . i knoww what i want now . i no longer want to have anthign to do with gangsterism . including friends ? its nice to hang out with them , but i've never trusted them ? only jerald & esmond . but nowadays , we don't keep in touch anymore . been a long time since i saw all my friends & talked to them . i feel happy in school with all my girls & friends . no talks abut gangs . all so innocent & fun . i like this feeling . i want to go back to my past again . losing touch with all of them might be a good thing ? (: no more vulgarities , no more running away from home , no more trouble . && if i've been a good girl , i wouldn't have lost my freedom . yes i want to be a good girl again . a really innocent want . only mixing with guai kias , get into a good poly , study hard . get a good boyfriend , one who has no tattoo , not in gang . ;DDDDD then i can bring him home , proudly show my mum . (: how wonderful i won't have to date secretly like my friends , i can be open bout everything . && i'l be leading a peaceful life . (: dearest love , im happy that you've settled down . but it sorta came too late . why did you wait so long ? to tell me that you really want to walk with me till the end of time ? i wanted to have eternity with you , but too much has happened . now that i want to start afresh , i finally know what kind of guy im looking for , && that you ain't what i want , you telll me , you wish to marry me ? im 16 . you're 20 . so many years to go , stop dreaming ? ;) i told you that it's impossible , you're dissapointed . you're already losing your patience currently , what makes you think we'll last ? now that i've sort out my thinkings , i want to lead a normal life . i want to be realistic . && i doubt if i've ever loved someone before . puppy love babeh ; don't take it too hard (: fuck to all bus conductors !