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&& i msg-ed esmond suddenly ytd (: i asked him how's his relationship going on . && he replied dmam fast he said stil lyk dat . stil dun lyk his girl . stil v sian . && im so happy :DDDDDD im glad tat he din lyk anyone else ! i feel lyk a bitch . but i cant b bothered . i've given up once . im happy if dere's a 2nd retake . if dere's none , i'l live in my memories (: && i dun tink me & bastard are going well . im feel so tired . i waited up for him till 3 am ytd . && he finally called ? i did something real ass agn . i talked bout fy to him agn . him : don't you think we are fated to be together ? that we can last so long ? me : isit ? him : yea . you going to be my future wife . me : isit . you realy think we are fated ? him : yea lor . fated to know each other & be together . me : so you mean , you & fy broke up , also fated ? && that you both fated to break up bcuz you fated to know me ? him : wtf . i don't want to talk to you anymore . fuck . hwo can you say this . me : oh yea ? so now what are angry with ? angry that im so fuckedup to say that ? so you want to scold me vulgar cuz of her agn ? him : ok fine . fuck . i admit its my fault . but i juz wanted to piss him off so badly , for letting me wait agn . == dumb shit i am . fuck it . i don't know what de hell im tinking . but i juz said it all to him . shoot him straight . (: && i chatted a logn time with darling ytd . told him wad happen b4 christmas . && he scolded me lyk dog lyk dat i tell you . all the vulgarities come out . more lyk shouting at me . darling : why you never call me ?! why ! && bla bla .im was damm stun la . den he went to drink . den he called baq round 4.30 . talked to him agn . finally slp at 5 plus 6 . woke up at 2 & did my hw . :DDDDDDDD hardworking me ! then wen to white sands to buy stationarys & all . im in a study mood now . mayb i might apply for jc ! (: been in the poly place . now , mayb im gg baq to jc ? yea hope so . && im not gg to shopping anymore . nor m i gg out . i'l b studying everyday after skool . (: yea . outigns for studying will always be on ! :DDDDDDDDDD i wan to strive ! plus , shopping will only be juz before chi new year ! (: saving up money . my blood brother's gg ns soon . sorta miss him . wtf man . no one to shout at or quarel with . no one to scold me or insult me . sian . i do love my bro . but i hate him at times . i hug my bro once (: at vivo . he dragged me home when i run away . :DD LOLs . alrites . i miss my baobei alot . i wanna c him soon agn . && i reali reali wan to go out with darling agn . miss him alot . i remember him pinching my cheek b4 ! & him callign up eric for prank == funneh & memoriable . hehs . (: old friends are the best ! :D i'l cherish baobei & darling ! && i muz say tat i've been chatting with eric on msn ! lols . dunoe why aso . but stil okok friends even after we broke up . hahas . funneh . i realised that im in good terms with all my ex , except for ivan . LOL . tat crazy person . dunoe him lars . im happy with myself , the way i am . ;D good night peeeps ! good night esmond , eric , baobei , darling , sisters , brothers & friends ! good night bastard . i miss 2406 (: