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only 2 people , jem & sheena can read my blog now .
he was suppose to prison . caught ytd nite .
for his rioting case las tym .
im tired . 1st , u play , 2nd , u caused me all de trouble .
3rd , u're caught .
hwo many u wan me to take at one shot ?
im bloody tired . i cried till 4am .
is it enuf ? or do u stil wan me to cry more .
hwo many hav u made me cried ?
how mnay times u wan to send me a sorry msg ?
telling me its de las tym && u wun do it agn ?
how mnay times do i havta read dem
how many times do i havta forgive you ;
how mnay times do havta go crazy cuz of u ?
how much tear u wan me to shed ?
hwo many torture u wan me to go thru ?
im disappointed in you . so much .
too much . i wun trust u agn .
even if we're together . but tell me dear .
HOW . u wan me to trust you ?
you're purely taking me for granted ey .
tinking i w nv leave you .
u made me suffer a fate worst than hell .
eugene ching ; if u love me , y are u putting me thru all tis ?
do i deserve it ? yea i hong u las tym .
but after we patched ? am i not true enuf to u ?
hav i not showered u wit enuf true love && care ?
wad do u wan from me . hwo much more tears && blood u wan ?
u tell me . i'l give all to u . so i wun owe u anyting.
is tat de way tings r suppose to b ? is so , let it be .
we can never go baq to de past agn .
iw as tinking of hwo to contact u .
tinking of how i can get news of you ; tinking or how to visit u
if u'd seen me today . i smoked 3 sticks in lyk 5 mins ?
non-stop ? de moment i finished one , i took out another immediately .
totally no brk . i wanted to smoke 8 , but havta go home .
i dun my mum to catch me agn . if im at chalet . i tink a pack in less than 30 min .
u're driving me crazy . u're driving me mad .
&& im stil letting u continue . tel me . do i deserve all tis ?
after loving you ? after giving u so many chances ?
eugene ; i've been giving & giving .
but u're not giving me anyting . noting .
1st month it was fair . but from 2 nd month ?
i've been giving lyk fuck . && im not recieving .
mayb i shuld MIA form others ?
shudl i MIA from you ? let u worry ?
or u wun even care . tats more lyk it . u wun bother .
mayb for de 1st day ? but mayb de 3rd day .
u will b hugging & kissing shirley rite ?
i felt lyk dyign today . after smoking .
i needa puke . i've gt a headache . my body was shivering when i'm in de sun
i looked so pale . do u noe ? no u don't .
i wonder if u've seen fallen to such a pathetic state cuz of u , wuld u b de xiao u i once trust ?
or wuld u b gone forever ? && its juz a matter of tym .
of how long i can withstand all tis ?
&& im strong enuf ? or hav i been being weak .
i oni wanna noe ; if i mia , wuld u wait for me ?
&& do you stil love me ?
do u feel proud ; now tat i've fallen to de ground ?
do u reali wan me in de most pathetic state , den u w stop ?
if so , u can stop now .
cuz im finding everyting ironic .
hongsters never die ; tiong xim all die die .
&& im tinking ; i never shuld hav b faithful to anyone .
i never shuld hav gave u my everyting .
cuz im left wit noting now .
thx xiao u . now tat u've taken away everyting . i havta restart
dun tel me u wan me to carry on ;
cuz i wun contact u . not even an sms or miss cor .
if i leave u one day . i'l let us hav a clean brk ;
no one w remember we were once together .
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